Can you sleep?.. Here's some nutty for you!

I wish I was a person who could sleep like everyone else.  I would love to turn out the light at 9 and drift away for a great nights sleep... but this is too often not in my cards.  Sleep comes to me in many forms: 1. pass out while watching a movie, (which my roommates can attest to and tease me incessantly for) 2. tossing and turning with my mind running a million miles an hour with plans, dreams, fears etc, and 3. after I have facebooked into oblivion, cleaned my room yet again ( an 8x8 room is so easily a disaster it's needed multiple times daily), and just can't think of anything else to do. In college I used to do the Tylenol PM thing, but find that to be though a good sleep not one that I should revert to given my family history with drug addiction.  So I share with you my blog readers who I think are probably few due to the fact that I post so rarely, that I am up tonight unable to sleep.  

Yesterday a friend asked me what is is like to not have thoughts in your head. I guess that her brain goes all the time... giving her little peace lately.  I told her its just empty there is just nothing there. Quiet...Peaceful.  

THIS IS NOT MY MIND TONIGHT

I am beginning to wonder if my brain is ADD sometimes and can't even slow down for me to grasp anything.  You know like a CD in the player that you can hear spinning but the player wont recognize it. Maybe that's my brain more often than not.  

I will say that over the past few months I have found that I worry less about things.  Less being the key word.  I am a planner.. and that is putting it mildly.  I plan for everything!  I see the goal be it big or small and then I make multiple plans.... I mean what if?  Right?   BUT I love spontaneity.  Does this make any sense at all?  I love that I am learning these things about myself.  I am me.. Prissi, Cilla, P, Scilly, and those are the few names I know people call me :) and everyday I embrace the nuts that my life is a little more.