Excitement... Faith... Hope... occasional cycles of Fear. This morning excitement and fear are checking in moment to moment. I leave NYC a month from today and from there, all I have is uncertainty.
I know I am leaving NY, I know I am driving to LA that same week, and I know this is the right step at the right time but I still have no solid plans once I start my car west from Wisconsin. OK that is a lie. I might meet a friend in Denver, I have tickets to a show on Nov 7, I have Thanksgiving weekend plans, and I am running a Marathon in February, so I guess I do have solid plans but that is not a place to lay my head or an income source. But now more than ever before, in the history of my grand moves, I am at peace...
What is that?
I almost don't know how to handle this because I am used to having a certain level of panic at the instability. I thrive on change yes, and even with all the crazy times of change in my life I always have needed a definite "plan", though looking back I guess I never really had one. So.. today I will do the work before me and live in today... or try at least.
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