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Excitement... Faith... Hope... occasional cycles of Fear. This morning excitement and fear are checking in moment to moment. I leave NYC a month from today and from there, all I have is uncertainty.

I know I am leaving NY, I know I am driving to LA that same week, and I know this is the right step at the right time but I still have no solid plans once I start my car west from Wisconsin. OK that is a lie. I might meet a friend in Denver, I have tickets to a show on Nov 7, I have Thanksgiving weekend plans, and I am running a Marathon in February, so I guess I do have solid plans but that is not a place to lay my head or an income source. But now more than ever before, in the history of my grand moves, I am at peace...

What is that?

I almost don't know how to handle this because I am used to having a certain level of panic at the instability. I thrive on change yes, and even with all the crazy times of change in my life I always have needed a definite "plan", though looking back I guess I never really had one. So.. today I will do the work before me and live in today... or try at least.

P

Blackberry Bloggin

So today my Mac went to the Dr. I knew this would happen but I am now face to face with the ugliness that is technowithdrawl. Yes I still have my phone... No internet here though....
But there is so much to get done before the move that this could be a great time to get my shit in order... As well as spend some much needed quiet time that i allow my comp to invade all too often.
The challenge is before me I accept and will arrive at the other side of this experience a bit more self reliant and less zoned out...

Nice to meet u

I was moving my sister into her new apartment and found this hat... I love it!  

P.S.  Hello from my cell phone! I send this via my cell so this should be fun... I may still like twitter better though

Bein, 

Cilly

My NY: Tren Subterraneo huh?

It's a Metro card!  This is my NYC "car key"... then yesterday I was looking at my roommate's card and on the back... 

 Translation please????  I love the spanish language but if I have an emergency underground how will i know what to do?  Well the question should be would I look at my subway card first?

And thats My NY!

-P

Packin it up.. again!

I have started the process yet again of packing up my room for what I hope is a move that will result in my putting down roots for the first time in my adult life.  I usually move in a moment's notice so having months to plan has been fantastic, and yet I have no idea what to do with it...  I absolutely enjoy the process of simplifying and de-cluttering does that make me nuts? Hmm...  I was looking out my window this morning and thinking about my time in NYC and the parts I will miss... but how ready I am to move on :)  And I journey on!  Love the adventure that life is.

-P

MY NY: AC? HA!

Welcome to My NY I have been wanting to do posts entitled "My NY"  things in this city from my perspective... and so with 61 days left in the city :)  I begin!  Better late than never right?  

... it's hot and my window fan (not pictured above is blowing some type of warm air in my general direction I have lots of experience with the heat so it's really not that much of a bother, but today it's getting to me.... this AC unit above is from last year when we thought it would be a good idea... turns out bills went up and cooling really never happened!  Oh Well :)  

And thats My NY!

-P

Can anyone help?

Hello out there?  Does anyone read me?  I know I ask this crazy question when i only post once every six months.. but I have a feeling that I am going to be posting more often and I really dislike my page.  I love this Orange thing now... because I love orange.. but I am struggling with the design part of this.  I want to like my layout and I can do lots of things but layout design is not something I am great at. Do I have anyone out there who would like to help  me out?

-P

Donde esta la Paz?

Holy Cow it's been almost 6 months since I was here.  I saw Julie and Julia last night and it was all about blogging and for some reason I think tonight is as good a time as any to "share my heart with the world"?   Since my Boys are up ( Yay football!)  I can turn down the volume and write a little.  

I leave NY in 68 days!  I know it's the exact step that I need to take   I love these times of extreme faith and seeming free-falling.  I know that God will work everything out because he promised he would and He's proven faithful thus far!  I don't really have the fear about that but rather there is a sort of panic that hits me when I try to figure out jobs to apply for.  I freeze up at this step a lot.  I can do anything!  I have experience in a million different things and yet I want more than anything to pursue the deepest desire in my heart and at the moment it feels so far away.   I am the first to talk about the Journey  and one step at a time but I am terrible at it. Well I'll take my own advice... breathe... pray and start again tomorrow! 

- P

Can you sleep?.. Here's some nutty for you!

I wish I was a person who could sleep like everyone else.  I would love to turn out the light at 9 and drift away for a great nights sleep... but this is too often not in my cards.  Sleep comes to me in many forms: 1. pass out while watching a movie, (which my roommates can attest to and tease me incessantly for) 2. tossing and turning with my mind running a million miles an hour with plans, dreams, fears etc, and 3. after I have facebooked into oblivion, cleaned my room yet again ( an 8x8 room is so easily a disaster it's needed multiple times daily), and just can't think of anything else to do. In college I used to do the Tylenol PM thing, but find that to be though a good sleep not one that I should revert to given my family history with drug addiction.  So I share with you my blog readers who I think are probably few due to the fact that I post so rarely, that I am up tonight unable to sleep.  

Yesterday a friend asked me what is is like to not have thoughts in your head. I guess that her brain goes all the time... giving her little peace lately.  I told her its just empty there is just nothing there. Quiet...Peaceful.  

THIS IS NOT MY MIND TONIGHT

I am beginning to wonder if my brain is ADD sometimes and can't even slow down for me to grasp anything.  You know like a CD in the player that you can hear spinning but the player wont recognize it. Maybe that's my brain more often than not.  

I will say that over the past few months I have found that I worry less about things.  Less being the key word.  I am a planner.. and that is putting it mildly.  I plan for everything!  I see the goal be it big or small and then I make multiple plans.... I mean what if?  Right?   BUT I love spontaneity.  Does this make any sense at all?  I love that I am learning these things about myself.  I am me.. Prissi, Cilla, P, Scilly, and those are the few names I know people call me :) and everyday I embrace the nuts that my life is a little more.