As the Clock Ticks Down...

and 2009 comes to a close, most of my day was spent trying to reflect and plan with very little success. I'm sure it's the same for most, but it seems to have been so short in some respects and in others as though eons have passed.

I went hiking today in Runyon Canyon Park. Breathtaking views of the city... my city... my home.

Home...

I never would have known that this year I would finally find the place my heart is home. Just saying it brings tears to my eyes. I know I know... always the emotional one! Those of you who know me and have been with me along the way can attest to this seemingly being the longest journey ever... but today standing on that hill/mountain, looking at the mountains, the ocean and the vast city in front of me all is as it should be.

I looked back at may journal entries from my dreaming session last year and without me even knowing I was accomplishing things they happened... Finding my home ( It was in those exact words on the page.. I had no idea), moving to LA ( that one has been a focus of course), met Kathy Griffin (even the little things!), paying down debt even happened a little. Of course there are a million things on that list, some are in process and some, I've found I've either outgrown or my priorities have changed... no worries.. it's all part of the journey.

I look forward to what 2010 has in store for me... last week I heard that the last decade was deemed the Decade from Hell by Time Magazine. I think back and can't agree... There were definite moments of pure hell, yes that I can agree with but to deem the entire decade Hell... that's pretty harsh. And in reflection those moments of hell gave me the choice to be destroyed or fight through to learn anything no matter how small. I am a fighter I always have been and pray that I always will be.

10 years ago we were sitting around, playing games wondering if when the hands met at 12 our world would come to a halt... the second hand ticked by the remaining seconds of a millennium and 12:00:01 we were handed another second, minute, hour, day, week, month, year, decade to live the life we were born to live. I have done and plan to do nothing less. Along the way I have met the most amazing people, many who continue to journey with me in some capacity and I look forward to the adventures ahead! Happy New Year!

T minus 30

Excitement... Faith... Hope... occasional cycles of Fear. This morning excitement and fear are checking in moment to moment. I leave NYC a month from today and from there, all I have is uncertainty.

I know I am leaving NY, I know I am driving to LA that same week, and I know this is the right step at the right time but I still have no solid plans once I start my car west from Wisconsin. OK that is a lie. I might meet a friend in Denver, I have tickets to a show on Nov 7, I have Thanksgiving weekend plans, and I am running a Marathon in February, so I guess I do have solid plans but that is not a place to lay my head or an income source. But now more than ever before, in the history of my grand moves, I am at peace...

What is that?

I almost don't know how to handle this because I am used to having a certain level of panic at the instability. I thrive on change yes, and even with all the crazy times of change in my life I always have needed a definite "plan", though looking back I guess I never really had one. So.. today I will do the work before me and live in today... or try at least.

P

Blackberry Bloggin

So today my Mac went to the Dr. I knew this would happen but I am now face to face with the ugliness that is technowithdrawl. Yes I still have my phone... No internet here though....
But there is so much to get done before the move that this could be a great time to get my shit in order... As well as spend some much needed quiet time that i allow my comp to invade all too often.
The challenge is before me I accept and will arrive at the other side of this experience a bit more self reliant and less zoned out...

Nice to meet u

I was moving my sister into her new apartment and found this hat... I love it!  

P.S.  Hello from my cell phone! I send this via my cell so this should be fun... I may still like twitter better though

Bein, 

Cilly

My NY: Tren Subterraneo huh?

It's a Metro card!  This is my NYC "car key"... then yesterday I was looking at my roommate's card and on the back... 

 Translation please????  I love the spanish language but if I have an emergency underground how will i know what to do?  Well the question should be would I look at my subway card first?

And thats My NY!

-P

Packin it up.. again!

I have started the process yet again of packing up my room for what I hope is a move that will result in my putting down roots for the first time in my adult life.  I usually move in a moment's notice so having months to plan has been fantastic, and yet I have no idea what to do with it...  I absolutely enjoy the process of simplifying and de-cluttering does that make me nuts? Hmm...  I was looking out my window this morning and thinking about my time in NYC and the parts I will miss... but how ready I am to move on :)  And I journey on!  Love the adventure that life is.

-P

MY NY: AC? HA!

Welcome to My NY I have been wanting to do posts entitled "My NY"  things in this city from my perspective... and so with 61 days left in the city :)  I begin!  Better late than never right?  

... it's hot and my window fan (not pictured above is blowing some type of warm air in my general direction I have lots of experience with the heat so it's really not that much of a bother, but today it's getting to me.... this AC unit above is from last year when we thought it would be a good idea... turns out bills went up and cooling really never happened!  Oh Well :)  

And thats My NY!

-P

Can anyone help?

Hello out there?  Does anyone read me?  I know I ask this crazy question when i only post once every six months.. but I have a feeling that I am going to be posting more often and I really dislike my page.  I love this Orange thing now... because I love orange.. but I am struggling with the design part of this.  I want to like my layout and I can do lots of things but layout design is not something I am great at. Do I have anyone out there who would like to help  me out?

-P

Donde esta la Paz?

Holy Cow it's been almost 6 months since I was here.  I saw Julie and Julia last night and it was all about blogging and for some reason I think tonight is as good a time as any to "share my heart with the world"?   Since my Boys are up ( Yay football!)  I can turn down the volume and write a little.  

I leave NY in 68 days!  I know it's the exact step that I need to take   I love these times of extreme faith and seeming free-falling.  I know that God will work everything out because he promised he would and He's proven faithful thus far!  I don't really have the fear about that but rather there is a sort of panic that hits me when I try to figure out jobs to apply for.  I freeze up at this step a lot.  I can do anything!  I have experience in a million different things and yet I want more than anything to pursue the deepest desire in my heart and at the moment it feels so far away.   I am the first to talk about the Journey  and one step at a time but I am terrible at it. Well I'll take my own advice... breathe... pray and start again tomorrow! 

- P